IM SO IN LOVE !

for the rest of my life,
i'll be with you,
i'll stand by your side,
honest and tru
to the end of my time,
i'll be loving you, loving you :)

by, maher zain.

sumpah this song touching gila ! hee. ily more muhammad nur fadzli :)

so guys, happy raya ! sorry lama tak updated. biasa lah kan, raya season, mesti banyak open house. so, busy lah sikit. tapi, ESOK FINAL ! woooow ! struggle lah hari ni. struggle lah sgt kn. dah berapa jam duduk depan pc, buku ape tak bukak lagi since raya hari tu. haaaah. kering gile kan ? haha. now, i really hope doa dari korang. tapi kalau ada doa, tapi buku tak bukak pun tak gune jugak kn ? see dayah, kau memang malas lahhh -__-'

cakap pasal open house, yesterday i was attended satu open house. the most important house in my life right now ! guess what ? semalam aku pergi rumah family fadzli. gila nervous. okayy, start cerita dari pagi. fadzli and me pergi college dulu sebab nak settle kn course work kitorang. ade satu lagi kuiz yang kitorang tak buat. then jumpa ijam. lepas tu text ekin, ajak pegi sekali. then kitorang fetch ikin girlf ijam pastu proceed pegi rumah fadzli. ahaha. but before that, malam sebelum open house fadzli told me for bring extra tshirt. haha. mama nye nak dera buat keje dapur. haha. tu yg nervous tu. then lepas sampai, salam mama lepas tu makan dengan dorang semua dekat depan.

few minutes later, ekin dgn wan nak balik. lepas tu, ijam dgn ikin pulak. haha. seems like dorang tinggalkan aku sorang sorang. gila nervous dohhh ! :O

tapi alhamdulillah, lepas fadzli pegi kedai, then mama and mamateh die soal siasat, haha. PASS ! alhamdulillah. hee. penerimaan yg baik. dan alhamdulillah aku pandai bwk diri. hee. plus dayah pandai lah pulak bodek kan, duduk dapur, cuci pinggan, angkat pinggan, tambah nasi, haha.

then malam, ingatkan nk dtg rumah fadzli balik, tlg mama kemas rumah die. tapi mama die kate tak payah sebab taknak susahkan aku. hee. lepas tu mama bagi duit raya. and yg paling mengejutkan, mama fadzli tulis something belakang sampul tu ! haha. thanks aunty. appreciate gile layanan yg diterima. semuanya sporting and boleh terima aku. sayang kata 'green light gila ohh yang !' haha. alhamdulillah. nenek, mamateh, babateh semuanya okay sgt. bersyukur sgt sgt :)

baba kate 'kau ni sebijik macam ateh (anak mamateh)'
ain kate 'hari ni gelak kena cover. ada boss tu (mama)' haha. sumpah ain jaga line terbaek gile !
mamateh kate 'nasib baik die sporting ngah, kalau tak dah lama mamateh reject !'
babateh kate 'baguih lah satu kelas dgn uli. lepas ni cepat sikit belajar'

lega rasanye, lepas semua ni dah jadi. haih. tapi kena ingat jugak, sekarang org suka, esok hari kite tak tau die suka lagi tak. insyaAllah

farewell RAMADHAN :(

today is the last day of ramadhan. so what im feeling ? hmmm, i suppose to be happy right ? but, no im nooottt. haha. and why ? i wonder why because this is the first time i feel this way at aidilfitri ! i been thinking about ramadhan last night. haih, this ramadhan quite hard for me. sumpah byk gila DUGAAN ! tapi alhamdulillah, its end very well and we're not going to celebrate aidilfitri together :( its okayy lah, but i dont know why i feel quite upset right now. kenapa ekk ? haih. semalam dah salam dia dah. tapi meleleh jugak air mata nii. kenapa yee ? maybe sebab banyak yg kite dah through sama sama ramadhan nii. alhamdulillah, semuanya okay je akhirnya :)

now he's at pedas, leaving me alone at kl. haha. its okayy, i will be at penang by tomorrow maybe. or tonight dah bertolak dah. insyaAllah. hope everything will be just fine. even he's not with me now, we still text-ing with each other. hee.

why my feeling could be like this ? macam nak sedih je. haha. entah lahh. hee. whatever lah. malas aku nak layan !

hee, now im done with kemas kemas rumah. sumpah cantik gile my home. hee. tingkap, kipas, lantai semua dah lap. tinggal nak packing barang untuk bawak pegi penang jee. hmm, maybe i'll be at penang until tuesday. hishh, my baby balik awal. kena lah tunggu aku. kesian dia :( tapi takpe lahh :) chill okay dayah ! raya nii ! hee :D

so tomorrow aidilfitri, and also my husband's birthday ! haha. happy birthday sayang. awal sikit sebab dekat kampung tak dapat nak update blog. takde internet.

so to my sayang, HAPPY 18TH ANNIVERSARY. WISH ALL THE BEST FOR YOU, LONG LIFE, HAPPY ALWAYS, BE WITH ME FOREVER, AND SUCCESS IN YOUR LIFE :)

you know how much i love you :)

NO MORE SECRET :)

yesss, i blow up the secret. there's nothing to hide. i know how pain to hear that. but you have to know, how pain i keep it secret and blame myself for all this time. look easy huh ? but its not. but still, thanks to you who are very strong to hear the secret.

there's nothing more to hide sayang. now, im totally yours. you got strong reason to walk away. but you did'nt. thanks to you again. you're the only reason why im still strong with this hard world. thanks syg, for not walk away, for accept who i am, for being with me all the time, for being so patience for all this time. for everything. im so appreciate it, and yess. who could be better than you ? NOBODY ! believe me :')

so yesterday, i thought it was my last class, but it was'nt. we still got class on wednesday. ouhh -__- and yesterday, me and sayang buat hal and puan ayu was pissed off when we're late for 1 hour. haha. itu sangat tak disengajakan because i thought class start on 12. but actually it start on 11. dah lah ada quiz, kitorang tak dapat buat pun. haha. but its okay lahh. malas nak fikir lagi dahh.

so semalam, kitorang buat sesi bergambar dalam class and now you all can meet my classmate and also my bestie :)

and malamnya, kitorang pegi berbuka puasa dengan our beloved mentor, puan izzaty and her husband :)

WE PERFECT THAN OTHERS :D

tonight, we did silly things. and now im realise, silly things make perfect. its make we different than others. tonight, i being myself. the real me. i dont even care if he did shame on me. i dont even care lah sayang. i do enjoy tonight. even that was the stupid-est things i ever did. anything for you sayang. you did the right choice. no regret lah ! i just love the way you make me crazy. nobody can do the way you did. it will be our best moment ever. heee :D

my super duper hubby :D

hun, this is your silly wife lah !

malam merdeka, kitorang jalan jalan. tak tahu nak kemane. tapi, sumpah terbaik. dan havoc gile ! sumpah lah fadzli, aku suke gile bile dengan kau. sorry buat kau shock. kesian minah tu kena sound dgn aku. tapi aku tak suka lah dia pandang kau. haih. tapi sumpah ni malam merdeka terbaik for me sayang. thanks a lot. thanks for the memory. nanti nak cerita dekat anak anak kita, ape mama dgn baba die buat malam merdeka. we did sweet-est things ever lahh. i love you so much. dont you ever think to walk away from me muhammad fadzli mohd ali :D

ITS OKAY .

THIS IS FOR OUR OWN GOOD.

yeahh, we cool.

I JUST CANT FIND A WORD :)

this song is really describe me right now. sometimes, when we are too happy or too upset, we just cant find the word to describe how it feel. and that is what happen to me right now ! for so many tests, finally, i got this feeling which is what im waiting for. its kind a magic to us. but its really beautiful right now. and yes, im speechless.

you are worthful sayang :)

iloveyou :)

im not the one who perfect, but im the one who love you very much - him

you're not the number one, but you're the only one -me

dekat basement parking. dekat college. haha. kalau gaduh je, dekat sini lah kitorang talk and try to solve the problem. plus petang tu hujan. malam we got program dekat college. ingat kan nak balik dulu, tapi hujan. so tunggu hujan berenti, amik bubur lambuk. then balik rumah.

dekat college. since program nii budak dpl yang punya project, then we datang lah and support. mane tau nanti program kite, diorang pulak yang datang support. ok, this is my love with songkok ! encem kan abang hajii ? haha. love you hun :)

sweet gile gambar nii. haha, speechless ! :)

today, he said, he want to quit from ptpl. haih, what can i say ? its up to you. i wish i could help you. im trying sayang. be strong ok. we'll through all of this together. ok sayang. iloveyou. aku takut gile nanti lagi banyak dugaan kalau kite jauh. sekarang dengan budak foundation tu pun aku dah berangin, lepas ni entah ape lah lagii. sumpah lah aku tak sanggup. faham lah yee sayang ? i just cant :(