ITS OKAY .

THIS IS FOR OUR OWN GOOD.

yeahh, we cool.

I JUST CANT FIND A WORD :)

this song is really describe me right now. sometimes, when we are too happy or too upset, we just cant find the word to describe how it feel. and that is what happen to me right now ! for so many tests, finally, i got this feeling which is what im waiting for. its kind a magic to us. but its really beautiful right now. and yes, im speechless.

you are worthful sayang :)

iloveyou :)

im not the one who perfect, but im the one who love you very much - him

you're not the number one, but you're the only one -me

dekat basement parking. dekat college. haha. kalau gaduh je, dekat sini lah kitorang talk and try to solve the problem. plus petang tu hujan. malam we got program dekat college. ingat kan nak balik dulu, tapi hujan. so tunggu hujan berenti, amik bubur lambuk. then balik rumah.

dekat college. since program nii budak dpl yang punya project, then we datang lah and support. mane tau nanti program kite, diorang pulak yang datang support. ok, this is my love with songkok ! encem kan abang hajii ? haha. love you hun :)

sweet gile gambar nii. haha, speechless ! :)

today, he said, he want to quit from ptpl. haih, what can i say ? its up to you. i wish i could help you. im trying sayang. be strong ok. we'll through all of this together. ok sayang. iloveyou. aku takut gile nanti lagi banyak dugaan kalau kite jauh. sekarang dengan budak foundation tu pun aku dah berangin, lepas ni entah ape lah lagii. sumpah lah aku tak sanggup. faham lah yee sayang ? i just cant :(

NOW I KNOW :)

tot tot, bunyi alarm. hari nii memang dah set. nak skip class math. sebab tak pernah lagi skip kan. tapi ade tujuan aku skip class favourite aku tuu. haha.

'dayah, kenapa tak masuk class math ? kesian fadzli, tak boleh belajar kau takdee.'

'kau pegi mane haa ? asal lambat ? kau ni betul lah buat aku risau !'

the reaction i expected. haha. im not happy for this. im just glad to know you're sasau because of me. i know you're worried. and now i know how much you cant stand without me. now i know. i know what exactly you feel towards me. and i am proud with that. i got what are everyone wanted. i got it.

petang, haih. we're fighting.

'sayang macam dah tak suke dekat org' -him

muhammad nur fadzli, macam mane aku boleh tak suke dekat kau haa ? cube kau bagitau. perkataan tak suke tu tak pernah ada between us lah yang. we're getting married, remember ? so now, there's no more tak sukee, tak sayang. dah tak ada dah. faham lah sayang, sometimes im tired. i need time. but at the same time, i need you beside me. tapi aku faham jugak, you're so sensitive. kadang kadang, aku pun satu, cakap main lepas. tak fikir perasaan kau. im so sorry sayang. im so sorry. im trying to be perfect. the way exactly you want. but im still trying. sabar yee sayang :)

lepas habis class and hantar assignment, kitorang move pegi bazaar kampung bharu. teringin pulak aku. tapi macam takde ape yang menarik. but we got back the magic. hee.

depan masjid kg bharu.

sumpah lah awak mengundang ! haha.this is the one who i cant live without :)

IGNORE AND IGNORE.

5.00 am
bangun sahur. my mom did'nt say any words to me. and now im wondering why. ouh, ok. biarlah. everybody seems unsatisfied with me now. what ever. -__-'

11.00 am
bangun dari tidur.

1.15 pm
move to college. let see what happen.
hanging out at library. hubby meeting with his mentor. bila keluar,

syg, org kena sound dgn puan hazreen
kenape pulak ?
entah. sebab cinta cinta dalam kelas.

aik. now we got issue here. ape lah pulak masalahnye. sumpah lah aku penat. haih, now, aku nak ignore je ape orang nak fikir. i am done. im done for take care of people feeling. they have to know how to take care of mine. nobody is perfect lahh. and we are not the only student who bercinta dekat college. tak payah nak high light kitorang sangat. tapi, thanks sebab tegur. haih. janji i'll give the best for your subject sebab nak proof dekat dorang even i bercinta, im still focus in study.

3.20 pm
pre registration for next semester. ok, lets see. semua subject seems fine but, aik. kejap. management accounting ?! what the h, h and h ?! okayy, you can kill me now ! gila ke ? accounting principal pun aku dah hilang akal ! now you nak bagi yang ni pulak ? sumpah lah korang tak berhati perut ! haha. kejap. tapi if im not mistaken, somebody dekat admin told me. 'subject account korang yang principal jee. lepas ni takde dah.' nampaknye aku kena tipu lagi dengan ptpl. korang betul betul nak bunuh aku -__-'
ehh ehh, jangan lupa. next semester, aku amik F.I.N.A.N.C.E ! seriously, you can kill me !

4.45 pm
the descent part 2. believe me, that movie was disgusting and boringggg ! haha. tapi, okayy lahh. thanks darling :)

7.00 pm
dari bazaar wangsa melawati, move to kader for berbuka dengan yang tersayang. first time berbuka with my love one :) sweet gileee ! even dekat kader.*sayang, sorry sebab putih :(

8.00 pm
jalan jalan, and lepaking di taman. heee. so sweet lah tonight. i am so in love with you !

9.00 pm
go home and trying to solve my problem.

10.30 pm
now i've been thinking about us. we have to be stronger than now. we have to ignore what are people saying. the thing is, i got you and you got me. there's nothing we have to care except us. sumpah you're the one who always be my side even i am up or down. kau dah perfect dah. and you have to stop ask me 'menyesal tak dengan orang ?' you know the answer is 'takde lahh. tak pernah pun.'

i will never ever regret to have you. kau lah benda paling indah, paling sweet, paling bahagia yang pernah jadi dekat aku. i will through anything for you lah sayang. i will be strong for you. i will fight for you. yes i will and i can. now i dont even care what are people saying.i made the decision and i will take the risk. they dont have any idea how happy i am. how happy i am to be with you. :))

ENOUGH :)

cukup lah sayang, cukup lah. no more fighting. hati aku nii, tak tau lah.damn fragile. harap kau faham. harap kau hormat. bukan kate kau tak hormat, tapi entahlah. kite sama jee. sama ! percaya lah. tapi aku tak boleh hidup without you.

semalam gaduh, hari nii gaduh lagi. penat tahu ? tapi aku boleh jadi kuat sebab kau lahh. aku tak kisah pun. haha. janji kau dengan aku, aku jee. sumpah aku sayang kan kau.

tahu tak hari nii ? sumpah kelakar. kitorang semua buat bussiness hari nii. jual assignment. harap harap puan ayu tak bace lah blog aku nii. kalau tak, mati lahh. haha. untung ijam hari nii, dapat 10 ringgit. haha.

lepas tu, aku dengan fadzli, gaduh sampai berape kali tadi. pasal benda kecik pun nak gaduh. entah lah salah siape. mungkin jugak salah aku. tapi takpe lah. dah fix pun. entahlah kenape. hati nii, fragile sangat. sensitive sgt lahh. harap kau sabar wahai sayang. ekeke :D

sumpah tadi dekat bazaar, kitorang buat keriau gilee. haha, rasenye, couple ni lah paling havoc sekali. tapi, kalau lah ape ape jadi, aku takkan lupa nii semua. tapi harap harap, takde ape lah yang jadi. i'll be with you sampai mati yangg. ingat angan angan kite tak ? haha, so sweet. aku tak kisah lah berape orang dah tau yg kau nak kawin dgn aku. i'll make our dream come true yang. insyaallah.

this weekend, he gonna leave me, nak balik kampung :'(
insyaallah, i'll be fine. haha, tapi nii first time aku nak kena tinggal. 2 hari pulak tuu ! haih. sabar jelahh. i gonna miss you sayang. you're mine tahuuu ?

*tak kira berapa ratus kau menang, nobody can take you away from siti noor hidayah ali, understood ?! haha. takut tak yang ?

I CAN STAND FOR MORE TEST !

yes, i can. of course i can. like he said, nothing can separate us. pernah dgr ayat hanya maut memisahkan kita ? tapi aku rase tu jiwang sangat kot. ouh, wtv. its true. you made im in love with you. no regret syg. i'll be the best.

hari nii, sumpah aku tak kuat. test, test and more test. hold my hands sayang. i need to be strong. i need to be matured. i'll find the solution. but no more solution except us. yes, i admit it. i am stubborn. i am hot temper. but nobody can control my temper except you.

cry baby cry. i dont care. you are not weak at all. but you are sensitive guy. and nice one. for what i did to get you, it is worth. sayang, no regret at all. sumpah ! percaye lahh. you're the best and nothing can stop my feeling towards you sayang.

dari pagi, bawak ke petang, sampai lah malam. fight, fight and fight. kuat ke aku nak hidup tanpa kau ? tak langsung lah fadzli. TAK ! i am trying to be the best yang. accept lah ape yang ade dekat aku nii :(

hari ni die kata : 'kau pegi lah dekat die. kau pegi. aku nak tengok kau bahagia ke tak. kau pegi lah !'

ape yang aku kate, 'kau **** lah ! :'(
langsung takde niat nak biadap dgn kau. tapi sumpah tu lah perkataan yang buat air mate ni turun laju fadzli. lajuu. aku dah tak kisah seri ke ape ! tak kisah langsung lahh.

tahu ape lagi die kate ? 'kau nii budak cengeng !'

aku tak kisah lahhh ! haha, thats me. aku sensitive, aku cengeng. ape lagi ? aku tak kisah. i am totally me in front of you. really. there's nothing to hide lahh sayang.
this love, this fucking heart, it is belong to you. tulang rusuk aku, memang dari tulang rusuk kau. percaya lahh !