thank you muhammad nur fadzli

so what it could be for this time ? hee. alhamdulillah and big thanks to muhammad nur fadzli bin mohd ali buah hati saya for make my dream come true. haha. guys, i got blackberry on my hand. hee. alhamdulillah. so i guess, that's all.

love you so much sayangkuuu

confusinggggg

currently is in confuse mood. haha why ? okay. here's the thing. actually, i have no problem with my current phone. but fadzli is going to buy new phone so he ask me to change my phone too. so what the problem is ? money ? i don't think so because we both know how to raise money. so what it could be ? i guess no problem at all right ? haha. but honestly, i have no heart to sell my nokia e71 and why ? hmm i guess too much memory on that phone. i still remember how fadzli ask to snap a picture of me using that phone while he actually trying to flirt on me. haha. and i am about to cry in front of ampang park before we wish to sell that phone. what a sad seriously. but i saw fadzli was try so hard persuaded me to go sell this phone. haha. padahal that was his phone. and he has work so hard to buy this phone and why i'm the one who try so damn hard to defending this phone ? haha. i am so confuse right now and guess what ? i'm currently listening to pasrah by erra fazira hahaha what the heck dohhh ?

so what kind of phone that he were so insist to ask me to buy ? and i am so in love with this phone actually. so the phone is blackberry curve 9300. haha so, that's all. pye pye.

muhammad nur fadzli, thanks for being my everything. i love you so much sweetheart ‎:)

i just got back from port dickson last sunday. what i can tell you about this whole vacation, it was totally awesome. i won't regret to joined they guys on that vacation. that was the sweeties moment ever that i won't forget for whole my life. i got more comfortable with his family, alhamdulillah. i am who i am there. heee. had so much fun with you, sayang.

so after having so much fun, yeah it's time to move my life like usual. hee. i was woke up by so many news. pfft. it's time to know everybody around me i guess. haha. so today was first class for me on this semester. english. damn i hate it because i saw so many students was failed on this subject. wish me luck guys.

so i guess, nothing to say but you know, lot of things i would like to write about, but i don't have a heart to humiliate people down here. but i guess, one fine day, i will be honest with all of you and trying to not give a damn about how your feeling until you guys know, i got a pride.

picture will be upload soon. have a good life guys. take care.

mind your words.

because we all knows who was start all of this. and you're lucky if i shut my mouth up. because if i say something, that will embarrassing yourself one fine day.

and fadzli, i love you.

thanks to zaza aidil ijam and rozie.

big thanks to you guys.

times square

their engagement day

so today was my cousin's engagement day. my mother ask me to join rombongan cik kiah pegi meminang. they are very young couple sebab my cousin were 21 this year and his fiancee were a year younger than him which same with me. actually i'm kind a jealous with them cause aku nak jugak tunang kann :( haha tapi mak aku tk bagi -.-'

so, enjoy the picture guys.

anak panah pertama was my cousin yg nak bertunang. bapak happy en muka die adehh jealousnyee. then the second arrow was muka org tk puas hati yang tak dapat tunang sebab mak die tak bagi --'

so this one my mom said, okay dah boleh tunang tapi ada syarat but i ignored the syarat and i was smile that way shown 'i don't care you guys engage ke ape nanti aku engage aku nak buat lagi besar punyeeee hahahaha'

this is my mak njang which is step mother for my cousin cause his real mother was dead time die sekolah rendah tk silap and this is the rockiest mak saudara yang aku ada. haha.

so ni dekat rumah my cousin's fiancee dah macam kahwin dah sebab siap ade khemah semua tapi memang okay lah and tema die color pink. and ohh, that was my sister. haha.

heee. so finished about their engagement and now focus on my relationship pulak.

and tau tak this whole day i haven't met fadzli at all. haha. what a day but alhamdulillah hari ni tak gaduh besar okay clap clap clap --'

haha fadzli, nk tunang nk tunang macam dorang. haha menci ahh.

lot of love, sitinoorhidayahbtali

i love you fadzli. always

what a day -.-

sigh. what a day. seriously berapa banyak org nk gaduh dengan aku hari nii. susah kalau org dah tk suka nii. haha

hmm first of all, thanks dekat yang like my previous post. i'm sure you happy to know that, but unfortunately, that was not the ending. we're still together. bagus lah kalau suka tengok perbalahan org lain. i'm sure you're not happy with your own life. now go get a life. and i'm sure you'll be fine.

so today, somehow i was fight with a few uneducated person who not my competition at all but still, thanks. memang sesuai lah kau kawan dengan dorang.

and tonight, a girl who i hate so much has came to his house dengan muka tk malu. seriously girl. that was so bitchy and once again you do something like that, you've cross my borderline. and you're so dead. haha. get the hell from his life, idiot -.-

seriously, you guys can get the hell of our life. tolonglah jangan bagi masalah lagi cause i'm trying to make this relationship better than before. and you guys, please pray for us and i'll do the same thing for you.

and with so damn happy i would like to say. merdekaaaaaaa ! haha. we both dah finished final paper and guess what ? its vacation time ! hee. we're going to port dickson this weekend. i'm hope everything will be just fine since japan was attacked by tsunami yesterday and i'm afraid it will come to port dickson. fuhhh. simpang. nauzubillah. harap harap tkde ape ape.

wish the best for me, guys. wish i get nice pointer for this semester. happy holiday guys. thanks for reading :)

this is the ending

this week was a freaking week i guess. full with fighting. so this is it. this is what it will be.

so i guess, this is how it feel when the ending has come. its pain. the pain for huge injury inside it. i know this time are really the ending. really. no doubt. and fadzli,

i wish the best for you,
i would like to thank you for what you've done,
i'm sorry for everything,
and i know you can't give me another chance
cause you had enough with me.

so, this is it kan. hee. good luck fadzli. i know you can find better girl for you. cause you deserve better.

you was full with surprise before. but i know, there's no surprise for this time. so i will start all over again. without you. but i'm still waiting here. waiting for miracle. but i know there's will be no miracle. thank you for reading. pray the best for me.

happy 20th birthday

happy birthday najihah binti idris.

actually i know this post were quite late but still, happy birthday sister.
we're being friends since the first time i was walk in to smt ert setapak at 8th of march 2008 i guess. and from that, i met this chubby girl who being my friend until now.

i want to let you know, i am so lucky to have you as my best friend and even you are quite silent i guess, but i know how to make you laugh even with my stupid jokes.

what i just hope is, she'll meet someone who can love her like i did, who can take a good care to her like her mother did.

first time i met her, she not talk so much to me. die macam sombong sikit nk kawan dengan aku. but with nobody realised, we have been so close at 2009 and i admit it, she quite sensitive person but don't worry, i know how to treat her very well. haha

anyway, i don't know why i put that picture sebab picture ni aku tk setuju sikit sebab kitorang dah macam bermadu dah. haha. joke. so sister, have a wonderful year, i wish all the best for you and i hope this relationship will be forever. you don't know how much i love you. happy birthday najihah.

i don't have any idea

i don't know what is wrong. i really don't know. you've said about breaking up these few days. what for ? if you really what to end this relationship, just let me know. just tell me. if you're not happy anymore with me, tell me. you don't have to ask me 'can't we be friends like we used to be ?' ohh man. you're so damn coward. 'if we had a problem, just face it with smile' you know what man ? you can stop with all the bullshit. i had enough. it just a small matter. you don't have to say something like that. i'll leave you if you really want to. i will.

there is no goodbye.

yes, there is no good bye. if we keep loving each other, there will be no ending except death. really hope so. but somehow i feel, lately we've been so 'hot' with each other which i don't have any idea why. there is something goes wrong somewhere but i don't know what is it. we've been fighting for about 7 times for a week. sigh. i hate that so much. last post, i've told you guys we've breaking our relationship up. but no, we're not going to end our relationship just like that. there will be always a way to go. to go better than this. but i don't know where to find that way. we've been working up so hard lately. insyaallah akan ada hasilnya.

i know, he won't leave me just like that. i know he will always defending this relationship. i don't have any stronger like he had. but he will always do. being so patient with me. the only person who won't walk away from my life, it is only him. the person who i can always count to, it just him.

i don't know why. we've been fighting for just a little small tiny things which doesn't worth anything. what a crap kan. haih.but what i fell so grateful with this relationship is, we've been fighting just because of us. not because of any third party. its mean we're not cheating with each other. i'm so grateful to have someone like him who are very loyal person and who i can always trust to. that are exactly why i am still standing here. stand beside him to defending this relationship together. cause we both know, we could die without each other.

and baby, thanks to you for still standing here. with me. i know i can always count on you. i know how people hates me, but i know i still got you so don't bother if whole world hates me.

good bye forever.

i miss you
tomorrow will be a very important and scary day for me for this semester because i will be sitting the most scariest paper for this semester, introduction to economy. but guess whattt. i'm not making any preparation tonight. because i just lost my most important person in my life. and i don't have any strength to do any thing right now. i admit he is so important for me. but i know, how much he hate me so i won't begging to him any again. i know he won't leave me unless he really mean it. i don't blame you at all cause i know that all is my fault.

what i just have to do right now, is get use with this new life. try to forget about him, and try to make my life happy. i know how much he don't need and don't want to see my face again. i just hope he will be better without me.

i know how much you're not happy with me. i know all of it. cause i know who i am. everybody hates me. nobody needs me. i am a piece of junk. i am totally useless. i don't know what to do without you. i will figure it out later. i don't have any idea what to do now. i am totally clueless without you. i know you will be just fine without me.

huuuhhhh. we just plan to go to genting highland and after that port dickson. but seems all of it will be just dreams. he's not by my side anymore. i am just alone. sitting here. talking to myself. with nobody know what happen. i don't have any phone right now. i don't need it cause i had nobody to text with.

i will miss you, your smiles, your jokes, your laugh, your voice, your tears. i will miss it so bad. i know how all of this doesn't mean anything to you right now. and i know you won't read it. how stupid i am to leave you. i am totally stupid. and i know this thing won't fix forever. i will be here. alone. forever. cause i know, there's will be nobody after you. cause i don't want any man to take your place. i don't want cause i just need you. and i hope i won't love anybody beside you.

16 july 2010 to 6 march 2011.

4th march 2011

what a exhaustingggggg day dohh today. haha. full with fighting lah i guess. peehhhh. okay. lets start the story with the good news first. i would like to wish a big congratulation to my bestfriend to find a new girlfriend untuk mengubat kesunyiannya. haha. congrats brother. i hope you can take a really good care to her cause she are very nice girl you've ever had i guess. heee. so i've met her today. quite okay but we still have to teach her a lesson. haha. so after solat jumaat, we all proceed to ampang point to play bowling but ada tournament pulak then kitorang tukar pegi karaoke. okay what. haha. so lepas dah penat karaoke, fadzli and me was proceed to pavilion. hmm but before that, haha. we had a fight for the first time at the very early morning what the heck pehhh. haha. you don't know how much i hate that part. hee.

so lepas dah sampai dekat pavi, tangan ni pulak gatal gatal nk check ptptn haha okay dah masuk. hee. then pegi bb plaza sebab nk beli baju untuk fadzli and congratulations we had second fight. what the beautiful day. haha. then patah balik pavi, then pegi fahrenheit hmm tk beli ape pun grab satu bag jee. hahaha. tk boleh tahan nafsu lahh -.-

haha. lepas tu patah balik pavi sebab nk cari baju fadzli pegi cotton on hehe yeah i grab satu lagi kemeja congratulation. haha. then pegi padini then dah beli his shirt and tshirt yeah he satisfied now i guess. so my stomach was soooo hungry then proceed pegi setiawangsa to isi balik perut nii. and hell yeah, another fight hahahahaha yeah i'm so gladdddddd -.- f.

then dah nak balik my home yes this time i was so happy and rasa nk lompat lompat sebab ada roadblock. wtffffffffffff hahaha benci dohhh. tapi alhamdulillah selamat semuanyaaaaa. then terus jalan lagi then someone said to me 'org tau awk dah menyampah dengan org' ohh what a very great words after whole day we had fighting with each other. that was so release. haha.

heee. so now i want to make hmm kind a confession i guess. haha.

to muhammad nur fadzli, you know how much i love you. you know how i can't live without you. i've told you before. just look into my eyes and believe me. i won't walk away from your life. don't you remember what we've been through for about 8 months ? that was so worthfull to have you beside me for all this time. i love you. i do. i don't care how more fights we have to through. i will through it. for you.

tell you

i've never tell you how special you are for me. because i can't find a way to tell you. i admit it how bad i am. don't appreciate what you've did to me. amik mudah semuanya. but i want you to know, i do realized what you've did for me. but i don't know how to say, thank you. i've never met someone special like you. you're full with patient. you keep tell me how special i am for you. but what i've did for you ? nothing. zero.

but today i want to let you know, i will never could to live without you even for a second. i know i can't. because you're everything for me. you've took away my heart. i could'nt find how to breath without you by my side. i could'nt live without your oxygen. believe me sayang. you're everything for me. i'm sorry if i've hurt you before this. i did'nt mean to. i hope you gonna stay with me. don't you ever walk away from my life once again. its hurt me so bad.

ily.

dear celcom,

dear celcom,
i'm sorry. i can't pay you for that amount, okay.

takkan tk boleh halal kot -.-