GENTING HIGHLANDS :)

So last 26 nov I mean yesterday :p we went to genting highlands for so many time planned tk menjadi and nahh ! This time Alhamdulillah. We six berjalan sehingga ke genting. Tercapai cita cita sy nk jalan tempat sejuk ala ala London dgn Love. Hee :*'

It went well for the beginning. Ohh not really well actually. First ijam lambat bangun tapi akhirnye bangun jugak. Alhamdulillah. And next one tayar baby bleh bocor pulak. Hahah it kinda funny but it's something to worry too. But redah ke terminal putra dgn tayar flat but pump jugak and Alhamdulillah sampai !

So our bus pukul 9.30 and at about 9.35 we dah move to genting. And I forgot pukul berapa kite sampai tapi sampai jugak Alhamdulillah. Hee. Next naik cabel car like usual and buy some food to breakfast and next masuk theme park. Whhooot whootttt ! Haha so tk naik ape pun for one hour sebab sibuk snapping picture hahaha :p

Then the first game kitorang naik swing yg pusing pusing tu sorry I forgot what it's called hahaa :D Then naik roller coaster, dinosaur land and after that here comes the rain -.- Tk dapat naik ape kottt. Semua tutup sbb rain. Tension gile tapi we enjoying jalan jalan dkt tempat yg sama for about 3 hours hahaha ehh biarlah kau ade ? Hahaha :p

Syukur Alhamdulillah selamat pergi dan selamat pulang. Actually ade jugak gaduh dkt genting *thanks friends sbb sabar masalah kitorang ni haha.But still we had lot of fun out there. Kena buat second trip sbb banyak games yg tk dapat naik sbb hujan. Pirates ship, sungai rejang roller coaster, and and and SPACE SHOT tk dapat naik. Hahaha :'(((

Second trip. InsyaAllah ! :DD


Pictures tk dapat uploaded sebab connection super lembap -.-

NEW BABY'S AROUND ! :D

Here's november comes. Lot to do this month. Tomorrow is Aidiladha. Celebrate dekat KL je. With love. Hee. Syukur alhamdulillah sempat lagi celebrate. October past and something big was happen. Okay I am an auntie. That's sound great but that was also make me realize that I'm getting older. And that's so not cool. Haha.

Last 31st october 2011, my brother dah dapat baby okayy ! Haha I am so happy cause it was a boyyy ! haha so happy sbb I tkde adik lelaki. Ade pun abang abang yg slalu buli -.-

Nk tau macam mane I was through nervous day tu ? On afternoon, my brother abemat tld me yg kak ila kena tahan ward sebab dah nk deliver baby. It was like 12pm tau. And I was weird sbb for me tu awal sgt. Then I pun dah plan something dgn my friends so I just proceed to the plan lah kan. Kitorang pegi ikea that time, makan meatball and jalan dekat the curve.

It was raining so kitorang balik lambat sikit. Lepas dah hang dekat dagang avenue and makan makan sikit, kitorang balik rumah. That time fadzli hantar balik then naik sampai atas sbb nk ambik duit and jumpe lah ibab. Die cakap mak dah pegi hospital. And I thought kak ila dah deliver lah.

Rupenye belum. Masa kitorang sampai, mak dgn mak kak ila tgh tunggu kak ila dalam bilik bersalin. baby lemas that time and kak ila terpaksa operated and tepat pukul 11 he was born. Syukur alhamdulillah semuanya selamat.

So fadzli balik dulu sbb nanti baba nya marah and I balik dgn mak sbb mak bwk motor sorang sorang kan. So lepas dah deliver, kitorang pun balik. Masa nk balik hujan lebat gile kesian dekat mak kena redah jugak and atas motor kitorang mengarut 2 org atas motor and nk bagi baby tu nama Muhammad Hujan sbb kitorang redah hujan utk die. haha. His real name is I'm not very sure but some kind like Muhammad Suffi Afiq Bin Mohd Hafiz kot. Will confirm it later :)

Now dah seminggu dah baby lahir. He was very healthy one and esok nk pegi tengok dia. Can't wait :DD

Selamat hari raya aidiladha peeps :)

CHEERS :)

Hye. It's been a while since my last entry. Nothing much to tell. As you guys know, I'm in semester break since 30 sept. Hee. Nothing much to do. Not like my others friends, semua membanting tulang mncari rezeki. We both ? Merayau mcm roh tk tenteram kata nyeee. Haha.

Tkde ape yg kite buat. Main badminton petang petang. Otherwise, mintak mak duit sikit, lepak dekat kedai makan. Haha. Ape nk jadi lah. Haih. But still, we enjoy this moment. Terfikir jugak kan. Nanti dah abis study, dah tkde masa mcm ni dah. Masing masing sibuk kerja. Betul tk ? So manfaat kan lah masa ni betul betul.

And one more thing, kitorang dah setahun and 3 bulan. How cool is that ? haha so cool okay :p

Farewell guys :)

I AM SO DOWN

I know he not really care about me. I know nobody did. I am so upset till I can't think properly. I don't know why. Maybe I near to my menses period. Don't know why and don't know how. This is not so good. Till sometime I think he might be got someone else behind me. I don't know. I don't know what to think. Everything's seem wrongs all the way. And I hate it. I do.

Sometimes I look at him and I feel like he's ignoring me. And it's make me so angry and somehow, we fight. Is that just me or it's really happen ?

I know and realise nobody is care about me. I know sometime people don't know me even we work or studying together. I am not so famous and nobody needs me. I sometime think who gonna attend my funeral ? It's so sad to see people just 'Hah, she's dead ? Innalillahiwainalillahirojiun.' And that's it. No tears for me. Not even a doa for me.

I have no confident to myself. I have no one beside me. I am so down.

MY 7300 DAYS ANNIVERSARY :D

Hahaha it's better to say 7300 than admit that I am 20 this year. Homaigodddd ! I am 20 guys :O Hahaha that's mean I am suppose to be mature than before. It's not I'm not matured enough, it's just maturer than before I guess. Haha die tknk mengaku jugak :D

So what I've did for today ? Not much but quite much I guess haha. 12 am last night I was received a text wish from ina, my bestf. And no one after that. And of course my baby. Tu tk pyh bagitau lah. Wajib kan :D So i go to sleep. I woke up late today. About 1 pm. The first thing I did is turning on my pc and I receive couple birthday wishes on facebook but not from any of my bestf except zaza. Zaa, thanks for that. I really appreciate that. Then about an hour I was staring to the monitor and I give up when still no wishes received from my bestf. Sedih gilaaaa :O

Right after I finished my bath I got a text message. I thought it was from fadzli, but it was not. It was from qila. Haha die wish my birthday and explained knape die lambat. Haha happy sekejap after that. Then lepas tu we went out without no direction. Seriously tktau nk pegi mane then fadzli took me to wangsa walk nk makan cake dekat secret recipe. Haha seriously first time aku tk suke gila makan cake cause I choose the terrible one --'

Nampak tk muka tk puas hati tuu :D

So after makan cake, he gave 2 choices utk pilih tempat pegi makan. The first one is fullhouse. And second one I don't know what happen he offered to brings me to Ikea Damansara sebab nk belanja sy makan meatball. Haha actually I really really want to get there but have no chance and today yes, he brings me there. Haha thanks darling. Yes it was my first time sampai sana after 20 years lahir di dunia. So what ? Haha sy bukan anak selangor that's why lahhh #noob Haha

The Curve #Yb Fadzli :D

So after that we take a walk at The Curve then we get home. Ehh bukan home. We proceed to Pavilion sebab Ijam kate nk belanja wayang so kitorang sambung crite Abduction yg kitorang dah tgk separuh kelmarin. Taylor lutner wooo my babyyy. Haha. So dalam movie I received a call from my baby fida. He sang me a birthday song and I felt to cry that time. Haha she was late cause she attend a competition and she win on that. Congratulation mok ! :DD

So after that kitorang pun balik rumah. It is true I don't get anything, but I just wanna tell you that I'm appreciate a memory from you guys to me. Thanks a lot for the wishes guys. And special thanks to Fadzli for being so tolerant with me on my special day. You such a good guy and I love you baby. I have never been celebrated like this before. Thanks to abah for the money. Even it was a couple bucks, but I do appreciate that. And thanks to mak for nasi goreng kampung. I am not from a rich family but I do appreciate a simple things. Even I got no wishes from my family except from ibab *tu pun on fb, but I know I have a happy family in my 20 years life.

Do I look like I'm 20 ? Not really kan ? :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABYY :*

Okay this post might be quite late. Referring to this entry's title, you all can see that on 10th of september are my baby's birthday. I'm so glad to get this chance for celebrated his anniversary with him again. Thanks to Allah. The day before yesterday, *friday, I was worry cause I don't have any plan to celebrate his big day. But with Allah permission, this birthday are the best birthday ever he had. I know he were so happy till he can't even shut his mouth for one second, even. Haha.


So today, I treated him what else, makan lah. Haha. Ingat nk belanja dekat hotel, ececehhh. Tengok muka die. Haha so I teringat die cakap 'Camane nk makan dekat open house ni yang ? Kenyang lah' Hahah sampai open house, diam diam die tambah 2 kali :DD


Hence, we proceed pegi open house rumah one of our collegemate, hee die tk jemput pun but kitorang dgn muka tebal datang jugak. Sini lah tempat kejadian die tambah 2 kali :DD


Next, rumah putra pulak. Open house jugak. Hee sini die makan roti jala jee. Haha comel je bbyboy saya nii :D


Next, open house dekat rumah one of Zaza's friend, Fatin. I've met her before. Sy pulak bantai mee rebus. Ahaha sedappp :D


And finally, kitorng pegi open house paling besar skali, One Utama :D Haha actually kitorang pegi sebab my baby nk bagi saya try meatbal kan. Sedih tk sy tk penah rasa haha wtv ! :DD Tapi oleh sebab perut jerit overloaddd haha so jalan jalan and minum minum aje lahh. Hee.

What a nice day we had today. What a nice 'kebetulan' we had there. Thanks to all my friends for today. And lupe nk cerita, masa nk pegi OU, mcm mcm happened. Kelakar gile. Ade yg almost accident, ade yg salah jalan. Haha it was dangerous but sweet moment as well. Thanks guys. I won't forget this moment. Wish this good relationship, will last till we die. And I hope kite masing masing will stick with each other during thick and thin will yaa ? :')

RAYA SAYA :)

Hari terakhir ramadhan.

Rasa sedih campur gembira tinggalkan KL utk sambut hari raya. Tapi masa packing baju nk balik kampung, sebak rasa sebab kena tinggal my kitty bum bum dekat KL sebab beliau bertolak lambat sikit dari saya. I don't know why tapi sumpah risau masa bertolak ke kampung. Hati terdetik kalau lah itu kali terakhir kite berjumpe, sebak dada rasa nk pecah tapi gagahkan juge apakan daya. Syukur alhamdulillah sampai ke kampung halaman, semuanya berjalan dengan lancar. And this is the last night of ramadhan. Kite semua tolong paksu utk jual lemang dan sgt lah meriah malam tu. What surprise me is, bukan kite golongan org islam je yg beli lemang, cina india semua tumpang sekaki. Katanya memang dorg tunggu aidilfitri tiap tiap tahun sebab nk makan lemang ni. Nk bakar susah kan. Bau asap jugak lah baju saya malam tuu. What a precious moment I got there :')

Hari pertama syawal.

Lepas berbuka di tepi jalan, even azan pun kitorang tk dengar, main tibai je waktu berbuka, tibalah hari yg di tunggu tunggu. Sedikit sebak di hati sebab org yg di sayang sayang berada beratus ratus kilometer jauh dari saya. Tapi gagahkan lah juga. Setahun sekali. Hee. Hari tu semua kebetulan pakai baju biru. Haha boria sakan :D

Syawal kedua.

Tema hari ni warna hitam pulak. Jauhnye kitorang berjalan. Dari seberang perai ke tembak, kedah. Lebih kurang 1 jam setengah duduk dalam kereta habis senget senget tudung. Haha. Bile sampai dekat rumah yg dituju, ya Allah sgt lah terkejut tengok rumah saudara yang masih lagi mengekalkan seni bina tradisional melayu. Jenuh buat photoshoot dekat sana. Lepas tu, kitorang proceed ke rumah sepupu saya. Lebih kurang sejam dalam kereta lagi menuju ke kuala kedah. Rumah ni btul btul tepi laut. Seram pulak kann :/

Syawal ketiga.

Alhamdulillah sempat lagi nk sambut syawal yg ketiga. Syawal yg ketiga kitorang beraya dekat perak. Tanah tumpah darah emak saya. Sana lah tempat die membesar, bermain, bak kata org tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang. Nothing special tapi lepas beraya, kitorang pegi makan yong tau foo dekat taiping. Terbaikkk :D

Syawal yg keempat.

Tk larat nk pakai baju kurung dah. Haha. Syawal keempat lah kami beraya sakan. Bukan beraya dekat rumah org biasa, tapi beraya dekat rumah salah satu legend tersohor kat Malaysia. Kitorang beraya dekat rumah Allahyarham P.Ramlee. Di rumah ni lah die dilahirkan. Tapi lagi satu rumah die, dekat dengan rumah saya, dekat genting klang. Nanti nk pegi sana pulak :')

Syawal ke lima.

Saya tk captured any picture sebab on that day saya kena jadi photographer sebab photographer kitorang kena berangkat balik awal ke KL. So, no picture was taken. Hee.

Syawal ke enam.

Syukur alhamdulillah dah sampai ke KL. And org pertama yg akan dicari mestilah kekasih hati ;) So pakai cantik cantik hari ni, keluar dengan sayang saya. Hari ni tgk hantu bonceng and kebetulan jumpe ijam and ikin so kitorang terus ajak die beraya sekali dekat rumah uli. Hee what a great day I had today. Lepas almost 5 days tk jumpe, sangat terasa rindu tuu. Hee. And I'm still missing you here, Mr F :D Ohh btw, hari ni genap hari ke 400 kami bersama. Kbye :D

I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU. I REALLY DO !

I am ego person. You know when someone got a big head, doing everything without thinking of others feeling. You know. Who sometimes being so annoying. That's me. I admit it. I am stupid sometime. I live with my ego. I put everything behind except my ego. How stupid I am ? I hurt my love one just to raise my ego. You know, sometimes I am truly upset with myself. Sometimes, I scream, I pinch you, it's all because I don't know how to be a better person.

I sit by myself. I was thinking. How ? I take my mother and my sister as an idol. I was try to be just like them. Full with patience. But I can't. Till today, you wanna leave me. I turn mad. I turn to be someone crazy. I felt to cry. But at same time, I felt angry, sad. You know. I walked alone. I don't know. I begging you not to leave me. You did. You're not leave me. You're still here. Be my side. Thanks for that. I am extremely happy for that.

Oh btw, I received a kad raya from my really really old friend. Haha kelaut english aku, Amerika ! Haha I got it for murni. Nanti I upload gambarnye kayy. I was wake up utk sahur. Then tibe tibe mak jerit, 'dik ade org hantar kad raya bawah pintu' I thought she was kidding. Tibe tibe keluar bilik btul btul ade lahh. Haha terharunyee.

For those yg nak bagi kad raya, silakan ehh. Jangan segan segan :D

NIGHT :')

I'm smiling by myself remember what happened last night. I was sneak out while everybody's sleeping, not on purpose. Haha. My baby. He was planned to playing futsal on midnight. But he has to tell his mom the game is 1 hour early than the real one because if he tell the truth, his mom will never let he going to the futsal game.

So I had no heart to let him alone outside and I don't want him waiting alone for 1 hour. I decided to be with him for 1 hour before the game start.

Haha and that's why I have to sneak out to be with him. Then when we start to make a move, rain fell down. It just sprinkle rain on the starting. But it getting hard when we get to semarak. Haha. Hujan selebat lebat nya and we just redah. Haha it was funny and that time he ask me 'ape kite buat ni yang ?' Hahah it was so cold you know. Then we stop at petronas ampang. We sit and think what to eat. But I'm still full and he suggest 'kite sahur sekali lah yang' haha. Then dia belanja ayam goreng mcD woo. Haha it was happy night we laugh, we chatting, I'm going to miss it. Then rain has stop and we decide to go to sport planet.

We got there and we saw nobody's there. Actually, I told him 'maybe takde game malam ni sebab hujan kan' but he said 'kite pegi tengoklah dulu'. And I was thinking dah alang alang kan. So about 45 minutes we've been waiting, still nobody's there. So hujan konon konon dah berhenti. So we start to get back home. Haha. After 5 minutes dah jalan, hujan balik. Haha.

And we screaming on the road sebab dah freezing gila kott ! Haha we're shaking tapi lagi kesian dekat die sebab dah basah lencun gila dekat depan tu. And finally we arrived at home safely. Alhamdulillah. It was a sweet memory of us. But too bad no picture was taken sebab we both tk bawak phone. Haha. And balik rumah, kitorang gaduh. Haha silly !

I AM STRONG PERSON. HMM AM I ?

Yesterday was a good day. Full with colors. I am happy person on yesterday. Full with laughs, jokes. Everything was fun. I met a lot of people in many kind. I was imagine. How if my parents was them ? Is that fair ? They love me till this day. Then one day, I send both of them to a place to take my responsible. Is that fair ? For them ? I am suppose to love them till the end, am I right ? So where's their children ? How could they leave all this people down there ? I don't know. I hope, I pray to Allah, don't pull me among of them. My parents deserve my love for ever. They need me.

A day before yesterday. It was a good day on the starting. I was with my love. My only one. Doing shopping together, break fast together. As usual, we laugh, ignore what people going to say about us. We just happy. And I am the happiest person on that time. But something happen. We start to fight. We curse each other. No more laugh on that time. We turn to other person. No more love. We just hate each other. We show it on words. Until one moment, he decided, to LEAVE me. I don't deserve it. I know. I was begging, I was crying. He said, he's not sure there's a love left for me ? Ohh that was stupid. I am loving him for anything happen. I hated him on that time. What kind of man you are ? Leaving me because of my weaknesses ? I tell you what ? You better don't.

So today, everything's back to normal. We're back in love again. That's the way this love playing with you. It hurt so bad sometime. But it give you rewards for everthings you've through. Trust me. Never lose hope :)

Happy 1 year and 1 month anniversary fadzli :')

MAAFKAN SAYA

Maafkan saya. Saya kurang ajar. Saya tk hormatkan awk. Saya hina awak.
Maafkan saya. Datang rumah awak lewat malam. Sedangkan, tk sikit pun awk nk tengok muka saya lagi. Dayuslah awk kalau kite bersama sekali lagi.
Maafkan saya. Tk dapat turut permintaan awk. Kecewakan awk.
Maafkan saya. Say tk secantik bekas girlf awk. Tk se hot kawan kawan awk.
Maafkan saya. Saya cuma perempuan hina. Assalamualaikum.

RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI.

I am truly happy today. Esok nk puasa dah. Alhamdulillah Allah bagi lagi kesempatan nk menyambut bulan yg mulia ni. Dengan org tersayang pulak tuu. Hehe. Syukur alhamdulillah. And this year, kali kedua aku berpuasa dengan Muhammad Nur Fadzli Bin Mohd Ali and kali kedua sambut puasa as PTPL student. Hee. Alhamdulillah.

And one more thing, sy dah setahun lima belas hari dengan boyfriend sy. Haha tapi sumpah slalu gaduh jugak weiii. Haha tp I can deal with anything with you. Gaduh tk gaduh, sayang tetap sayang. Picture will upload soon okay. See yaa. Selamat menyambut ramadhan al mubarak. And selamat hari raya aidilfitri *wish awal awal sebab malas nk update blog nanti :/

I LOVE YOU MUHAMMAD NUR FADZLI. That's all. bye ;)

ROLLING IN THE DEEP :)

LOL I love this song actually. Ohh no, it's not what I going to write. Seems everything look not right here and there. I don't know if I've did something wrong. Ohh sure I did. But I'm wondering does he love me ? Like he used to be ? Trully I hope so. I can't afford to hear 'no' from him. I don't know. It going to be a year few days more. I'm clueless. I don't know what to do. I just hope he'd love me more than I do love him.

I don't know it's just my feeling or it's happen but I think he's changed. A lot. I don't know. But that's keep playing in my head. He blamed me for whatever happened. I don't know. I'm stuck. Is that all my faults ? Come on. I need you to tell me. I know you will leave me soon. But I can't let it happen. Because I love you and I don't know what to do without you. God, I need Your help :'(

WOOOWWW ! I JUST LOVE MY LIFE :D

Thank god. For all of this. I got everything I need now. I got my family, my sweetheart, and my friends around me. Everything just completed ! Alhamdulillah :')

Know what ? I read all my post last week. I saw many like 'heartbroken' post and I like 'What the hell is this ? Where are the happy part ? I don't have one ? Haha of course I have. But like I said to my baby, I don't know what to write when I'm in the happy mood, you know. When I'm down, I'm so upset of something, I write to express all the sadness. When I found myself in the very happy mood, I have nothing to say because I am so happy.

So today, I am so happy and I'm writing to tell the world that I have happy life with people around me. I thank to Allah to have a very happy life which full with laugh and I am so happy.

And guess what, today is 348th days Muhammad nur fadzli and I have been together and I am super happy for that.

I would like to thank to my friends for always be with me through my thick and thin and thanks to you, my <3 who always cheer me up and being so patience with me. Thanks to my family too for all of this. Thank you :)

I'M COUNTING TO SOMETHING :*

Yeah. I'm counting to something. Okay it's not something. It is our anniversary. We celebrated our 11th month anniversary last 16th. I'm actually don't know how many days has we been together because I'm too sleepy to count it. Heee but whatever it is next 16th of july me and my lovely, handsome, sweetie boyfriend will be celebrating our 1st year anniversay and I'm really really can't wait for it !! Yeaahhh I am :DD

And yeah, yesterday I met my babies Fida and Ghah and doing not the same thing but quite different things as 3 of us was really running out of money and we totally have no direction hahaha but yes, we still has lot of fun together. I will miss that part :')

11 Jun 2011

Eleventh jun two thousand twelve. I'm still counting to our 1st year anniversary and obviously I can't wait for it. So today is saturday. And hari nii along tunang dengan pilihan hatinye, kak palena. Hee. Congratulation and I am so jealous to see them and I can't wait for our turn. Haha.

10 Jun 2011

Hye I know I've been missing for few days. So many things happen around and I have nothing to tell beside the worst part of my life I've through past few weeks. I hope everything will be just fine after this InsyaAllah.

I know we love each other but sometime and somehow we can't afford to through the fights and we decided to make end this relationship and I know I can't afford to live without you. I am a loyal person and I give everything I had not for the person who will leave me for my weaknesses. I give my everything to a man who will never give up to change me to a better person. And I pray to Allah that you will be the man who the right person who will guide me and won't walk away from me. InsyaAllah.

I don't care people hate me because nothing is more important than you beside me. I respect person and hoping she/he will to the same thing towards me. I am a straight person. I make rules for myself and I hope whole world will follow my rules which I know that are so nonsense. You slowly try to show me that I'm not right all the time and I'm learning the new rules from you.

I'm expecting from everybody to respect you the way they did to me and others. I can't stand to see people be rude to you even anybody because I love you so much and I don't even care a whole world could hate me. I don't give a damn ! :DD

330 days :')

319th days

Alhamdulillah. It's a big number I guess. Haha. So, I know it's full with conflict sometimes but alhamdulillah we're still here, together. Thank to Allah. So tomorrow will be the first day for third semester and 4 subjects have to be learn and I hope everything will be just fine. Harap harap pointer tk maintain tapi naik tinggi tinggi ! InsyaAllah. I want my mother to be proud of me even I'm quite stupid --' I know but I also know I will do the best this semester InsyaAllah.

Hee I am so happy now because 1 more month we will celebrating our 1st year anniversary I know it's just a small number but it mean a lot to me since we had fighting almost everyday even it was just a small little tiny matter but I still love him just like the first day I love him and it wouldn't change and I hope he will do the same.

THANK YOU MUHAMMAD NUR FADZLI MOHD ALI <33

LADIES DAY OUT :D

Actually this post should be yesterday post but something went wrong and specifically I was not In mood because of something so here it is. Being today's post. Haha.

So yesterday I met Fida and Qila and we went like usual doing shopping, watching movie walking around, non stop talking and yeah we had so much fun out there. Alhamdulillah. I know that how much I miss all of them but there's no time machine to turn back time to back to high school time, you know.

There's so much changers and yeah I can saw something change maybe we grew up became someone who matured haha actually I don't think so because we act just like when we was 16 and I miss that time so bad :'(

A day wasn't enough because we have so much thing to share, to do together but I still don't know when we can get the chance but I miss you guys so much. I really do :(

To Muhammad Nur Fadzli, I swear I am so happy to have you and I hope you won't WALK AWAY from my life because I can't stand to live without you because I do love you so much, sayang :)

YOU CAN'T GET ENOUGH

I swear I don't understand what is happen to us now. I need an answer. Say something ! I'm not a slut so you can do what you want. And I'm still waiting.

TEST

Allah maha adil. Apa yang berlaku, ada hikmah yang dijanjikan. Itu janjiNya. InsyaAllah.

I'm maybe just a stranger. But I know and I can feel the pain through the silence. When we see somebody who always full with smiles being so gloomy even she throw a smile towards me but I can feel the pain beside her smile. It was so sad but we've to accept this with all our hearts as we just His servant.

I hope you will get well soon because I can't stand to see your mother become so upset and worry about you and I hope you will be so strong for your family and of course for your mother. God will be always with you. Take this as a test and I'm sure, you'll be fine. InsyaAllah. Don't stop praying to Allah and don't give up because He' listening you 24/7 :)

KISAH SEORANG PENGEMBALA KAMBING

Tk payah lah aku nk cerita balik dekat korang pasal cerita nii. That was a fairy tale. But don't be so sure. It happen in our real life.

Kisah seorang pengembala kambing yg mengembala dekat satu padang dan menjerit minta tolong sebab ada ular gigit kaki die tapi bila orang kampung datang die gelakkan orang kampung sebab percaya dengan jeritan palsu die tu. And at the second day, die jerit lagi minta tolong and cakap ade anjing yg gigit kaki die dan orang kampung datang lagi untuk tolong tapi ternyata DIA MENIPU LAGI. On the next day, die betul betul digigit anjing dan dipatuk ular dan die menjerit minta tolong malangnya orang kampung dah tk percaya cakap die. And die terpaksa merangkak dari padang tempat die mengembala ke rumah seorang penduduk kampung untuk minta bantuan.

Moral of the story, once you lie to someone, you'll never get her/his trust anymore. Anyway, this is my blog, it's up to me to wrote what I want. It's got NOTHING to do with you plus I don't know a big liar like you. So, get lost you loser ! And kenapa kau terasa ehh ? Aku budak budak tapi aku ada life and aku tk perlu nk tipu orang and obviously, I'm not a loser, like you. HAHA :DD

Ohh anyway, today is my 10th months anniversary. Clap clap. Haha. And to those who tk suke, dengki, menyampah, TAKDE LIFE, LOSER,

ADHA KU KAY SHAH ?

Hahaha go get a life first okay :DD

HYPOCRITE

I don't mean to hurt anybody but I just want to tell you guys that the only person that I hate the most is the hypocrite type. Ohh please. Tk payah lah tunjuk mcm awk tu bagus sangat. Stop tell the world that you are the only one who good enough, okayy. We all knows how you act. Then, stop !

And I'm regret to trust you for all this time and you always get busted but we guys still give a chance to you but not this time. No more chance. Good bye.

I love you :)

I don't love a man for fun. I want a serious relationship and a long lasting one. That's what I do now. That's what I do for you. I'd try to change. I know what kind of girl I am. But I swear, you won't regret for any second to have me by your side. It's been 10 months, love. Thanks for the very nice cooperation. To change me, to bring me this way. That was so nice of you :)

Thanks for forcing me everyday, to eat, to recover from my old behave, to concern on my every single move. That was so nice. And this is the first time, I feel this way, you know ? Everything has changed. I hope it will forever be this way.

Thanks for the very good care, for all the nagging. You know sometime I get boring to it but now, I get use with it. Haha. Thanks for you.

It's been 10 months, sweetheart :))

You've changed.

I've never been sure like this before. But I'm so sure about this. I know you've change. Because of something. And could be because of me. Maybe your love to me just not like before. But I'm still, loving you like I used to be and more than you've ever thought. I know I'm a stupid person. I can't be a person like you want me to be. I can't shut my hell mouth when you're nagging to me because of something. I know what you want from me. But I've give you what I got. And thanks for loving me for who I am. But its okay if you don't. I know nobody could stand with me. And I'm sorry for that :)

thank you muhammad nur fadzli

so what it could be for this time ? hee. alhamdulillah and big thanks to muhammad nur fadzli bin mohd ali buah hati saya for make my dream come true. haha. guys, i got blackberry on my hand. hee. alhamdulillah. so i guess, that's all.

love you so much sayangkuuu

confusinggggg

currently is in confuse mood. haha why ? okay. here's the thing. actually, i have no problem with my current phone. but fadzli is going to buy new phone so he ask me to change my phone too. so what the problem is ? money ? i don't think so because we both know how to raise money. so what it could be ? i guess no problem at all right ? haha. but honestly, i have no heart to sell my nokia e71 and why ? hmm i guess too much memory on that phone. i still remember how fadzli ask to snap a picture of me using that phone while he actually trying to flirt on me. haha. and i am about to cry in front of ampang park before we wish to sell that phone. what a sad seriously. but i saw fadzli was try so hard persuaded me to go sell this phone. haha. padahal that was his phone. and he has work so hard to buy this phone and why i'm the one who try so damn hard to defending this phone ? haha. i am so confuse right now and guess what ? i'm currently listening to pasrah by erra fazira hahaha what the heck dohhh ?

so what kind of phone that he were so insist to ask me to buy ? and i am so in love with this phone actually. so the phone is blackberry curve 9300. haha so, that's all. pye pye.

muhammad nur fadzli, thanks for being my everything. i love you so much sweetheart ‎:)

i just got back from port dickson last sunday. what i can tell you about this whole vacation, it was totally awesome. i won't regret to joined they guys on that vacation. that was the sweeties moment ever that i won't forget for whole my life. i got more comfortable with his family, alhamdulillah. i am who i am there. heee. had so much fun with you, sayang.

so after having so much fun, yeah it's time to move my life like usual. hee. i was woke up by so many news. pfft. it's time to know everybody around me i guess. haha. so today was first class for me on this semester. english. damn i hate it because i saw so many students was failed on this subject. wish me luck guys.

so i guess, nothing to say but you know, lot of things i would like to write about, but i don't have a heart to humiliate people down here. but i guess, one fine day, i will be honest with all of you and trying to not give a damn about how your feeling until you guys know, i got a pride.

picture will be upload soon. have a good life guys. take care.

mind your words.

because we all knows who was start all of this. and you're lucky if i shut my mouth up. because if i say something, that will embarrassing yourself one fine day.

and fadzli, i love you.

thanks to zaza aidil ijam and rozie.

big thanks to you guys.

times square

their engagement day

so today was my cousin's engagement day. my mother ask me to join rombongan cik kiah pegi meminang. they are very young couple sebab my cousin were 21 this year and his fiancee were a year younger than him which same with me. actually i'm kind a jealous with them cause aku nak jugak tunang kann :( haha tapi mak aku tk bagi -.-'

so, enjoy the picture guys.

anak panah pertama was my cousin yg nak bertunang. bapak happy en muka die adehh jealousnyee. then the second arrow was muka org tk puas hati yang tak dapat tunang sebab mak die tak bagi --'

so this one my mom said, okay dah boleh tunang tapi ada syarat but i ignored the syarat and i was smile that way shown 'i don't care you guys engage ke ape nanti aku engage aku nak buat lagi besar punyeeee hahahaha'

this is my mak njang which is step mother for my cousin cause his real mother was dead time die sekolah rendah tk silap and this is the rockiest mak saudara yang aku ada. haha.

so ni dekat rumah my cousin's fiancee dah macam kahwin dah sebab siap ade khemah semua tapi memang okay lah and tema die color pink. and ohh, that was my sister. haha.

heee. so finished about their engagement and now focus on my relationship pulak.

and tau tak this whole day i haven't met fadzli at all. haha. what a day but alhamdulillah hari ni tak gaduh besar okay clap clap clap --'

haha fadzli, nk tunang nk tunang macam dorang. haha menci ahh.

lot of love, sitinoorhidayahbtali

i love you fadzli. always

what a day -.-

sigh. what a day. seriously berapa banyak org nk gaduh dengan aku hari nii. susah kalau org dah tk suka nii. haha

hmm first of all, thanks dekat yang like my previous post. i'm sure you happy to know that, but unfortunately, that was not the ending. we're still together. bagus lah kalau suka tengok perbalahan org lain. i'm sure you're not happy with your own life. now go get a life. and i'm sure you'll be fine.

so today, somehow i was fight with a few uneducated person who not my competition at all but still, thanks. memang sesuai lah kau kawan dengan dorang.

and tonight, a girl who i hate so much has came to his house dengan muka tk malu. seriously girl. that was so bitchy and once again you do something like that, you've cross my borderline. and you're so dead. haha. get the hell from his life, idiot -.-

seriously, you guys can get the hell of our life. tolonglah jangan bagi masalah lagi cause i'm trying to make this relationship better than before. and you guys, please pray for us and i'll do the same thing for you.

and with so damn happy i would like to say. merdekaaaaaaa ! haha. we both dah finished final paper and guess what ? its vacation time ! hee. we're going to port dickson this weekend. i'm hope everything will be just fine since japan was attacked by tsunami yesterday and i'm afraid it will come to port dickson. fuhhh. simpang. nauzubillah. harap harap tkde ape ape.

wish the best for me, guys. wish i get nice pointer for this semester. happy holiday guys. thanks for reading :)

this is the ending

this week was a freaking week i guess. full with fighting. so this is it. this is what it will be.

so i guess, this is how it feel when the ending has come. its pain. the pain for huge injury inside it. i know this time are really the ending. really. no doubt. and fadzli,

i wish the best for you,
i would like to thank you for what you've done,
i'm sorry for everything,
and i know you can't give me another chance
cause you had enough with me.

so, this is it kan. hee. good luck fadzli. i know you can find better girl for you. cause you deserve better.

you was full with surprise before. but i know, there's no surprise for this time. so i will start all over again. without you. but i'm still waiting here. waiting for miracle. but i know there's will be no miracle. thank you for reading. pray the best for me.

happy 20th birthday

happy birthday najihah binti idris.

actually i know this post were quite late but still, happy birthday sister.
we're being friends since the first time i was walk in to smt ert setapak at 8th of march 2008 i guess. and from that, i met this chubby girl who being my friend until now.

i want to let you know, i am so lucky to have you as my best friend and even you are quite silent i guess, but i know how to make you laugh even with my stupid jokes.

what i just hope is, she'll meet someone who can love her like i did, who can take a good care to her like her mother did.

first time i met her, she not talk so much to me. die macam sombong sikit nk kawan dengan aku. but with nobody realised, we have been so close at 2009 and i admit it, she quite sensitive person but don't worry, i know how to treat her very well. haha

anyway, i don't know why i put that picture sebab picture ni aku tk setuju sikit sebab kitorang dah macam bermadu dah. haha. joke. so sister, have a wonderful year, i wish all the best for you and i hope this relationship will be forever. you don't know how much i love you. happy birthday najihah.

i don't have any idea

i don't know what is wrong. i really don't know. you've said about breaking up these few days. what for ? if you really what to end this relationship, just let me know. just tell me. if you're not happy anymore with me, tell me. you don't have to ask me 'can't we be friends like we used to be ?' ohh man. you're so damn coward. 'if we had a problem, just face it with smile' you know what man ? you can stop with all the bullshit. i had enough. it just a small matter. you don't have to say something like that. i'll leave you if you really want to. i will.

there is no goodbye.

yes, there is no good bye. if we keep loving each other, there will be no ending except death. really hope so. but somehow i feel, lately we've been so 'hot' with each other which i don't have any idea why. there is something goes wrong somewhere but i don't know what is it. we've been fighting for about 7 times for a week. sigh. i hate that so much. last post, i've told you guys we've breaking our relationship up. but no, we're not going to end our relationship just like that. there will be always a way to go. to go better than this. but i don't know where to find that way. we've been working up so hard lately. insyaallah akan ada hasilnya.

i know, he won't leave me just like that. i know he will always defending this relationship. i don't have any stronger like he had. but he will always do. being so patient with me. the only person who won't walk away from my life, it is only him. the person who i can always count to, it just him.

i don't know why. we've been fighting for just a little small tiny things which doesn't worth anything. what a crap kan. haih.but what i fell so grateful with this relationship is, we've been fighting just because of us. not because of any third party. its mean we're not cheating with each other. i'm so grateful to have someone like him who are very loyal person and who i can always trust to. that are exactly why i am still standing here. stand beside him to defending this relationship together. cause we both know, we could die without each other.

and baby, thanks to you for still standing here. with me. i know i can always count on you. i know how people hates me, but i know i still got you so don't bother if whole world hates me.

good bye forever.

i miss you
tomorrow will be a very important and scary day for me for this semester because i will be sitting the most scariest paper for this semester, introduction to economy. but guess whattt. i'm not making any preparation tonight. because i just lost my most important person in my life. and i don't have any strength to do any thing right now. i admit he is so important for me. but i know, how much he hate me so i won't begging to him any again. i know he won't leave me unless he really mean it. i don't blame you at all cause i know that all is my fault.

what i just have to do right now, is get use with this new life. try to forget about him, and try to make my life happy. i know how much he don't need and don't want to see my face again. i just hope he will be better without me.

i know how much you're not happy with me. i know all of it. cause i know who i am. everybody hates me. nobody needs me. i am a piece of junk. i am totally useless. i don't know what to do without you. i will figure it out later. i don't have any idea what to do now. i am totally clueless without you. i know you will be just fine without me.

huuuhhhh. we just plan to go to genting highland and after that port dickson. but seems all of it will be just dreams. he's not by my side anymore. i am just alone. sitting here. talking to myself. with nobody know what happen. i don't have any phone right now. i don't need it cause i had nobody to text with.

i will miss you, your smiles, your jokes, your laugh, your voice, your tears. i will miss it so bad. i know how all of this doesn't mean anything to you right now. and i know you won't read it. how stupid i am to leave you. i am totally stupid. and i know this thing won't fix forever. i will be here. alone. forever. cause i know, there's will be nobody after you. cause i don't want any man to take your place. i don't want cause i just need you. and i hope i won't love anybody beside you.

16 july 2010 to 6 march 2011.

4th march 2011

what a exhaustingggggg day dohh today. haha. full with fighting lah i guess. peehhhh. okay. lets start the story with the good news first. i would like to wish a big congratulation to my bestfriend to find a new girlfriend untuk mengubat kesunyiannya. haha. congrats brother. i hope you can take a really good care to her cause she are very nice girl you've ever had i guess. heee. so i've met her today. quite okay but we still have to teach her a lesson. haha. so after solat jumaat, we all proceed to ampang point to play bowling but ada tournament pulak then kitorang tukar pegi karaoke. okay what. haha. so lepas dah penat karaoke, fadzli and me was proceed to pavilion. hmm but before that, haha. we had a fight for the first time at the very early morning what the heck pehhh. haha. you don't know how much i hate that part. hee.

so lepas dah sampai dekat pavi, tangan ni pulak gatal gatal nk check ptptn haha okay dah masuk. hee. then pegi bb plaza sebab nk beli baju untuk fadzli and congratulations we had second fight. what the beautiful day. haha. then patah balik pavi, then pegi fahrenheit hmm tk beli ape pun grab satu bag jee. hahaha. tk boleh tahan nafsu lahh -.-

haha. lepas tu patah balik pavi sebab nk cari baju fadzli pegi cotton on hehe yeah i grab satu lagi kemeja congratulation. haha. then pegi padini then dah beli his shirt and tshirt yeah he satisfied now i guess. so my stomach was soooo hungry then proceed pegi setiawangsa to isi balik perut nii. and hell yeah, another fight hahahahaha yeah i'm so gladdddddd -.- f.

then dah nak balik my home yes this time i was so happy and rasa nk lompat lompat sebab ada roadblock. wtffffffffffff hahaha benci dohhh. tapi alhamdulillah selamat semuanyaaaaa. then terus jalan lagi then someone said to me 'org tau awk dah menyampah dengan org' ohh what a very great words after whole day we had fighting with each other. that was so release. haha.

heee. so now i want to make hmm kind a confession i guess. haha.

to muhammad nur fadzli, you know how much i love you. you know how i can't live without you. i've told you before. just look into my eyes and believe me. i won't walk away from your life. don't you remember what we've been through for about 8 months ? that was so worthfull to have you beside me for all this time. i love you. i do. i don't care how more fights we have to through. i will through it. for you.

tell you

i've never tell you how special you are for me. because i can't find a way to tell you. i admit it how bad i am. don't appreciate what you've did to me. amik mudah semuanya. but i want you to know, i do realized what you've did for me. but i don't know how to say, thank you. i've never met someone special like you. you're full with patient. you keep tell me how special i am for you. but what i've did for you ? nothing. zero.

but today i want to let you know, i will never could to live without you even for a second. i know i can't. because you're everything for me. you've took away my heart. i could'nt find how to breath without you by my side. i could'nt live without your oxygen. believe me sayang. you're everything for me. i'm sorry if i've hurt you before this. i did'nt mean to. i hope you gonna stay with me. don't you ever walk away from my life once again. its hurt me so bad.

ily.

dear celcom,

dear celcom,
i'm sorry. i can't pay you for that amount, okay.

takkan tk boleh halal kot -.-

life is what we've never thought

what's happen around me kind a surprising me lately. haha. one of my friend had a really bad heart damage were made by his girlfriend ohh no ex-girlfriend. haha. sumpah kesian dengan member aku sebab kena game dengan ex-girlfriend die gile teruk lah dohh. hee. we all doakan yang terbaik untuk kau. insyaallah tuhan akan temukan kau dengan perempuan yang jauh lebih baik untuk kau. amin

life is what we've never thought. haha. its true. haha. people change but you change a lot. siapa ? nobody. hee.
i've got true friends before. but now ? i'm kind a lost my best friends.


lucky i got him by my side. always. 24/7 and i love him so much. i do. he is everything for me. i can't even think how if i lose him. he just what i got right now. and he is the one who will never betray me. that's what friends for but that's what i got from him. my best friend ever.

i love you, boyfriend

i miss you guys

i miss you guys a lot.

rindu waktu sekolah dulu. haha. susah senang sama sama. now i know, something we want, even ada duit banyak mana pun, tapi kite takkan dapat balik ialah zaman sekolah. hmm i miss it so much. haha. macam macam dah jadi. and sekarang, persahabatan tu berubah sikit demi sedikit. tapi rasa sayang, takkan pernah hilang walau ape pun jadi. and i want you guys to know, i miss and love you guys so much. no matter what happen, please stand by my side and be a part of me. thank you for what you guys have done, and im sorry if i hurt you guys feeling or something. im just not perfect but i can't afford to lose you guys.

and ini lagi sorang, even kau jutawan or ape sekali pun, kau takkan dapat die dari aku. haha.

sorry, he is unavailable

he is totally mine. the one can make me laugh sampai tk ingat dunia but at the same time can make me feel so sensitive, so special. haha. he just hmm everything for me. haha. i love you so much. happy 7th months anniversary mokkk. i love you so much. you know i can't afford to lose you. thanks for being apart of my life. i love you i love youuu

trust nobody

i've been thinking about this thing so many times lately. hmm. i'm kind a wondering. who can i trust ? who my real friends ? since past 2 months, i did'nt approve any friends request on my facebook. why ? because i've been stabbed by people around me for few times and i've learn from that. now i decided to not trust anybody except my self and of course him.

i noticed some people i met everyday, being so near with me, so damn unsatisfied or hmm jealous maybe to my relationship. until now i still cant find why that thing could happen because i have no bad feeling towards her or her relationship because i had so much better life than her i guess.

once when i had a fight with him than she'll come over him and whisper to him like a evil or something and i still don't understand why. haha. because i had so much better life than her i repeat. come on sweetheart. just move on with your life. learn how can i had this beautiful life and stop doing something which we both know does'nt worth any shitt.

pfft -.-
i don't have any idea kenape wujud lagi manusia mcm ni dekat dunia nii. come on lahh. dah 2011 lah sayang kuu. haih.

and fyi, i am so damn happy with him and you can stop berusaha nk ruin our relationship lah. sebab aku tk penah kisah pasal your life lah sayang. and i am so glad to have him even starting relationship kitorang pun kau nk ruin kan jugak kann. haha.

and ada lagi satu jenis org yg aku baru noticed hmm wujud jugak org macam nii.
'aku cakap org boleh tapi sebenarnye aku cakap pasal die sebab aku dengki dengan die kott'
faham tak ? so cute kann ? ni lah perangai manusia.

haih. i know nobody is perfect. even myself pun. tapi entah lah. haih. ketara sangat kau tk puas hati dengan org even org tu tk penah kacau kau tak penah kenal kau punn hmm camane tuu ? haih. nk tegur, kawan sendiri. nk diam, aku sendiri sakit hati. haih nk ignore tapi rasa macam tk puas hati pulak.

now, i decided to screw the world hmm okay tak ?haha tapi nanti org pulak sibuk pasal aku hmm camane pulak kann. susah lah nak cari kawan betul betul kawan sebab macam dah takde real friends dah kann. haih, actually ade tapi berapa kerat je yg aku betul betul percaya.

sighhh -.-
dunia nk kiamat dah kann.