WE PERFECT THAN OTHERS :D

tonight, we did silly things. and now im realise, silly things make perfect. its make we different than others. tonight, i being myself. the real me. i dont even care if he did shame on me. i dont even care lah sayang. i do enjoy tonight. even that was the stupid-est things i ever did. anything for you sayang. you did the right choice. no regret lah ! i just love the way you make me crazy. nobody can do the way you did. it will be our best moment ever. heee :D

my super duper hubby :D

hun, this is your silly wife lah !

malam merdeka, kitorang jalan jalan. tak tahu nak kemane. tapi, sumpah terbaik. dan havoc gile ! sumpah lah fadzli, aku suke gile bile dengan kau. sorry buat kau shock. kesian minah tu kena sound dgn aku. tapi aku tak suka lah dia pandang kau. haih. tapi sumpah ni malam merdeka terbaik for me sayang. thanks a lot. thanks for the memory. nanti nak cerita dekat anak anak kita, ape mama dgn baba die buat malam merdeka. we did sweet-est things ever lahh. i love you so much. dont you ever think to walk away from me muhammad fadzli mohd ali :D

ITS OKAY .

THIS IS FOR OUR OWN GOOD.

yeahh, we cool.

I JUST CANT FIND A WORD :)

this song is really describe me right now. sometimes, when we are too happy or too upset, we just cant find the word to describe how it feel. and that is what happen to me right now ! for so many tests, finally, i got this feeling which is what im waiting for. its kind a magic to us. but its really beautiful right now. and yes, im speechless.

you are worthful sayang :)

iloveyou :)

im not the one who perfect, but im the one who love you very much - him

you're not the number one, but you're the only one -me

dekat basement parking. dekat college. haha. kalau gaduh je, dekat sini lah kitorang talk and try to solve the problem. plus petang tu hujan. malam we got program dekat college. ingat kan nak balik dulu, tapi hujan. so tunggu hujan berenti, amik bubur lambuk. then balik rumah.

dekat college. since program nii budak dpl yang punya project, then we datang lah and support. mane tau nanti program kite, diorang pulak yang datang support. ok, this is my love with songkok ! encem kan abang hajii ? haha. love you hun :)

sweet gile gambar nii. haha, speechless ! :)

today, he said, he want to quit from ptpl. haih, what can i say ? its up to you. i wish i could help you. im trying sayang. be strong ok. we'll through all of this together. ok sayang. iloveyou. aku takut gile nanti lagi banyak dugaan kalau kite jauh. sekarang dengan budak foundation tu pun aku dah berangin, lepas ni entah ape lah lagii. sumpah lah aku tak sanggup. faham lah yee sayang ? i just cant :(

NOW I KNOW :)

tot tot, bunyi alarm. hari nii memang dah set. nak skip class math. sebab tak pernah lagi skip kan. tapi ade tujuan aku skip class favourite aku tuu. haha.

'dayah, kenapa tak masuk class math ? kesian fadzli, tak boleh belajar kau takdee.'

'kau pegi mane haa ? asal lambat ? kau ni betul lah buat aku risau !'

the reaction i expected. haha. im not happy for this. im just glad to know you're sasau because of me. i know you're worried. and now i know how much you cant stand without me. now i know. i know what exactly you feel towards me. and i am proud with that. i got what are everyone wanted. i got it.

petang, haih. we're fighting.

'sayang macam dah tak suke dekat org' -him

muhammad nur fadzli, macam mane aku boleh tak suke dekat kau haa ? cube kau bagitau. perkataan tak suke tu tak pernah ada between us lah yang. we're getting married, remember ? so now, there's no more tak sukee, tak sayang. dah tak ada dah. faham lah sayang, sometimes im tired. i need time. but at the same time, i need you beside me. tapi aku faham jugak, you're so sensitive. kadang kadang, aku pun satu, cakap main lepas. tak fikir perasaan kau. im so sorry sayang. im so sorry. im trying to be perfect. the way exactly you want. but im still trying. sabar yee sayang :)

lepas habis class and hantar assignment, kitorang move pegi bazaar kampung bharu. teringin pulak aku. tapi macam takde ape yang menarik. but we got back the magic. hee.

depan masjid kg bharu.

sumpah lah awak mengundang ! haha.this is the one who i cant live without :)

IGNORE AND IGNORE.

5.00 am
bangun sahur. my mom did'nt say any words to me. and now im wondering why. ouh, ok. biarlah. everybody seems unsatisfied with me now. what ever. -__-'

11.00 am
bangun dari tidur.

1.15 pm
move to college. let see what happen.
hanging out at library. hubby meeting with his mentor. bila keluar,

syg, org kena sound dgn puan hazreen
kenape pulak ?
entah. sebab cinta cinta dalam kelas.

aik. now we got issue here. ape lah pulak masalahnye. sumpah lah aku penat. haih, now, aku nak ignore je ape orang nak fikir. i am done. im done for take care of people feeling. they have to know how to take care of mine. nobody is perfect lahh. and we are not the only student who bercinta dekat college. tak payah nak high light kitorang sangat. tapi, thanks sebab tegur. haih. janji i'll give the best for your subject sebab nak proof dekat dorang even i bercinta, im still focus in study.

3.20 pm
pre registration for next semester. ok, lets see. semua subject seems fine but, aik. kejap. management accounting ?! what the h, h and h ?! okayy, you can kill me now ! gila ke ? accounting principal pun aku dah hilang akal ! now you nak bagi yang ni pulak ? sumpah lah korang tak berhati perut ! haha. kejap. tapi if im not mistaken, somebody dekat admin told me. 'subject account korang yang principal jee. lepas ni takde dah.' nampaknye aku kena tipu lagi dengan ptpl. korang betul betul nak bunuh aku -__-'
ehh ehh, jangan lupa. next semester, aku amik F.I.N.A.N.C.E ! seriously, you can kill me !

4.45 pm
the descent part 2. believe me, that movie was disgusting and boringggg ! haha. tapi, okayy lahh. thanks darling :)

7.00 pm
dari bazaar wangsa melawati, move to kader for berbuka dengan yang tersayang. first time berbuka with my love one :) sweet gileee ! even dekat kader.*sayang, sorry sebab putih :(

8.00 pm
jalan jalan, and lepaking di taman. heee. so sweet lah tonight. i am so in love with you !

9.00 pm
go home and trying to solve my problem.

10.30 pm
now i've been thinking about us. we have to be stronger than now. we have to ignore what are people saying. the thing is, i got you and you got me. there's nothing we have to care except us. sumpah you're the one who always be my side even i am up or down. kau dah perfect dah. and you have to stop ask me 'menyesal tak dengan orang ?' you know the answer is 'takde lahh. tak pernah pun.'

i will never ever regret to have you. kau lah benda paling indah, paling sweet, paling bahagia yang pernah jadi dekat aku. i will through anything for you lah sayang. i will be strong for you. i will fight for you. yes i will and i can. now i dont even care what are people saying.i made the decision and i will take the risk. they dont have any idea how happy i am. how happy i am to be with you. :))

ENOUGH :)

cukup lah sayang, cukup lah. no more fighting. hati aku nii, tak tau lah.damn fragile. harap kau faham. harap kau hormat. bukan kate kau tak hormat, tapi entahlah. kite sama jee. sama ! percaya lah. tapi aku tak boleh hidup without you.

semalam gaduh, hari nii gaduh lagi. penat tahu ? tapi aku boleh jadi kuat sebab kau lahh. aku tak kisah pun. haha. janji kau dengan aku, aku jee. sumpah aku sayang kan kau.

tahu tak hari nii ? sumpah kelakar. kitorang semua buat bussiness hari nii. jual assignment. harap harap puan ayu tak bace lah blog aku nii. kalau tak, mati lahh. haha. untung ijam hari nii, dapat 10 ringgit. haha.

lepas tu, aku dengan fadzli, gaduh sampai berape kali tadi. pasal benda kecik pun nak gaduh. entah lah salah siape. mungkin jugak salah aku. tapi takpe lah. dah fix pun. entahlah kenape. hati nii, fragile sangat. sensitive sgt lahh. harap kau sabar wahai sayang. ekeke :D

sumpah tadi dekat bazaar, kitorang buat keriau gilee. haha, rasenye, couple ni lah paling havoc sekali. tapi, kalau lah ape ape jadi, aku takkan lupa nii semua. tapi harap harap, takde ape lah yang jadi. i'll be with you sampai mati yangg. ingat angan angan kite tak ? haha, so sweet. aku tak kisah lah berape orang dah tau yg kau nak kawin dgn aku. i'll make our dream come true yang. insyaallah.

this weekend, he gonna leave me, nak balik kampung :'(
insyaallah, i'll be fine. haha, tapi nii first time aku nak kena tinggal. 2 hari pulak tuu ! haih. sabar jelahh. i gonna miss you sayang. you're mine tahuuu ?

*tak kira berapa ratus kau menang, nobody can take you away from siti noor hidayah ali, understood ?! haha. takut tak yang ?

I CAN STAND FOR MORE TEST !

yes, i can. of course i can. like he said, nothing can separate us. pernah dgr ayat hanya maut memisahkan kita ? tapi aku rase tu jiwang sangat kot. ouh, wtv. its true. you made im in love with you. no regret syg. i'll be the best.

hari nii, sumpah aku tak kuat. test, test and more test. hold my hands sayang. i need to be strong. i need to be matured. i'll find the solution. but no more solution except us. yes, i admit it. i am stubborn. i am hot temper. but nobody can control my temper except you.

cry baby cry. i dont care. you are not weak at all. but you are sensitive guy. and nice one. for what i did to get you, it is worth. sayang, no regret at all. sumpah ! percaye lahh. you're the best and nothing can stop my feeling towards you sayang.

dari pagi, bawak ke petang, sampai lah malam. fight, fight and fight. kuat ke aku nak hidup tanpa kau ? tak langsung lah fadzli. TAK ! i am trying to be the best yang. accept lah ape yang ade dekat aku nii :(

hari ni die kata : 'kau pegi lah dekat die. kau pegi. aku nak tengok kau bahagia ke tak. kau pegi lah !'

ape yang aku kate, 'kau **** lah ! :'(
langsung takde niat nak biadap dgn kau. tapi sumpah tu lah perkataan yang buat air mate ni turun laju fadzli. lajuu. aku dah tak kisah seri ke ape ! tak kisah langsung lahh.

tahu ape lagi die kate ? 'kau nii budak cengeng !'

aku tak kisah lahhh ! haha, thats me. aku sensitive, aku cengeng. ape lagi ? aku tak kisah. i am totally me in front of you. really. there's nothing to hide lahh sayang.
this love, this fucking heart, it is belong to you. tulang rusuk aku, memang dari tulang rusuk kau. percaya lahh !

US.

it is really freedom when you became exactly you in front somebody you love.
there's no more things you have to hide, you have to deny when you with him.
there's no more 'you' or 'i' word. it is just 'us'.
no more selfish, no more hypocrite.
no more someone else.
it is really US.

dia kata, 'awak dah lain, dah makin sweet'
dia kata 'sumpah org nak kawin dengan awak'

tapi, aku kata, i am just me in front of you. sumpah lah org x hipokrit langsung. and one more thing, orang garang mcm dulu lahh ! tak percaya ? we'll see sayang. im not changed at all. haha.

tak percaya ke aku garang ? haha . you will believe.

whatever, my changers, my laugh, my sweet talking, it is just for you and it is because of you. only youu muhammad fadzli mohd ali :)

OUR NINA :)

Nina

Cinta Kita
Tabah Meniti Masa
Julang Kesetiaan

Oh

Nina

ku Terlena
Dalam Dakap Mesra Kasihmu
Dikau Alunkan Lagu Pilu

Linang Airmata
Terhurai Segalanya
Nina

Pergi Jua
Sedang Api Cintaku
Hangat Membara

Kaku Bibir Bicara
Lesu Tidak Bermaya
Merayu Kemaafan
Pinta Lupa Segala

Sayang Lupus Semuanya
Tinggallah Kenangan
Pohon Cintamu
Akan Kusiram Mawar
Semarak Cinta
Semadi Jua

Nina

Seandainya
Takdir Menentukan Segala
Akan aku Relakan Jua

Nina

!

IT CAN BE TRUE, AND IT WILL .

now, it is true. no doubt. no games. no more liar. it is just us. i mean you and me. lets make it easy sayang. i know we can. i am sure we can.

so much fighting, so much misunderstanding, so much tears. but now, we stand very strong with each other.

you are my laugh, my tears, my anti biotic, my everything.

thanks sayang, for every single things you did for me. sumpah kau lahh yg terbaik. tak tahu macam mane kalau takde kau sayang. thanks sayang. i love you more ! :*

AM I FAKE ?

hatoiii, feeling aku baru nak bahagia, tau tau, ade je yg buat perasaan ni bergelora. haih. fake kah aku ? tidak lahh, just trying to be my self. totally me. the way i like to be. the way i am comfortable with. sumpah lah, aku sayang die. tak ade makne nye aku nak jadi fake. this is me ! the real me.

tau tak, takde org boleh jadi my muhamad nur fadzli ? die je yang boleh jadi, and only him can make me laugh after make me cry !

sumpah lahh, aku tak fake. sumpah, aku lah perempuan yang sayang die, sumpah.

im not force my self to love him ! aku rela sayang kan die. haih. berhenti lah ! berhenti cakap aku fake !

the way i smile, the way i talk, the way i laugh, it is still same ! macam mane pulak kau kate aku lain sedangkan kau bukan selalu dgn aku pun ? aku bahagia lah dgn die. aku tak tipu sape sape. aku tak tipu diri sendiri. no, i am totally not FAKE ! this is original me ! sumpah !

tau tak ? aku patut ignore ape yang orang rase. what is important right now, my feeling to him, is not fake. i trully love him. i be myself all the time. yang bahagia, aku yang derita. bukan kau ! aku yang tanggung semua ! i mean SEMUA !

HAI RAMADHAN !

sambil updating blog, sambil dengar lagu raya, gila kan ? haha, sumpah semangat gila nk puasa nii. nak meningkatkan kasih sayang aku dekat Allah dan orang sekeliling yang di sayang, ekeke :D

bulan ni lah bulan yang bangkit kan semua kenangan aku, suka suka, haha. tapi know what ? this ramadhan, aku nak bukak buku baru, bahagia kan diri sendiri dan bahagia kan muhammad nur fadzli mohd ali.

hara harap, puasa penuh, tapi memang tak penuh lah kan, tuhan ampunkan semua dosa aku, banyakkan amalan aku, insyaallah.

tapi, baju raya aku macam tak nampak lubang je nak cari duit nak belii. haha, insyaallah, nanti ada lah tuu.

so tomorrow until saturday, aku ada test, haih. tapi insyaallah aku buat elok elok. harap harap ramadhan ni bukak kan hati aku nak belajar rajin rajin. hehe.

GUYS, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN :)

HYE SUNSHINE :)

sunshine, come to me ! i know you're mine. only mine !

its been a hard day for muhammad nur fadzli and me, but guess what ? he fixed it. thanks sayang, kdg kdg aku fikir, kenapa lah aku tak fikir sejauh kau ? haha, agaknya, kau memang ditakdirkan untuk aku lah yang ! sumpah hari ni banyak gila gaduh, tapi, terima kasih sangat sangat dekat baby mokk aku yang banyak gila sabar. for those out there, lantak lah korang nak ckp dia kuat jealous ke apa. tapi dulu aku pun fikir macam tuu. tapi sekarang, baru lah aku faham, kenapa sampai macam tu sekali.

mok, kalau kau baca, percaya lah, tak kisah lah kau macam mana annoying pun, selagi berdirinya aku kat sebelah kau, kau kena confident dengan diri sendiri. just be your self in front of me. i love how ever you are sayangg, haih.

sekarang baru lah aku tau kenapa perasaan jealous tu ade. sebab perit bila kita hilang orang yang kita sayang. hope that is the last thing will ever happen to me. haii mokk, aku tak dapat nak cakap lah kan, tapi sumpah dooohhh, aku boleh mati kalau tak gelak dengan kau satu hari. ketagih mok, ketagih segala galanya yang ade dekat kau tahuu ? eeee, mcm mane lah aku nak cakap yang aku sayang gila kat kau haa ?!

okay lah, oleh sebab aku sayang kau, tahun ni aku pakai kebaya ek, sebab aku nak tunjuk yang my confident level increased because of you ! because of you ! percaya lah ! hahahah.

sumpah aku sasau dekat depan pc nii sebab kau dohhh. kesian lahh dekat aku :'(

mokk, jangan pegi jauh ek mokk, stick with forever ye sayang. i mean for ever ! tak sanggup mokk, nak tengok kau bahagia dengan orang lain. kau lah satu satu nya manusia yang pantul kan diri aku sendiri. kita sama yangg, sama sangat, takde orang lain boleh bahagia kan kau macam aku buat lahhh ! eeee :D

SAYANG, AKU SAYANG, CINTA, RINDU, NAKK KAT KAU JEEEE ! PAHAM TAK ?!!

I DELETED MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT !

yes people, i deleted my facebook account. haha, its seems quite hard at first, tapi lama lama, bila tengok my baby mokk, sungguh sungguh nk aku delete, haih, ikutkan je lah, anything for you lah sayang :) haha, plus got few things yang mendorong benda ni jadi. hmm, first, kitorang banyak gaduh because of fb, cant deny it, fadzli is so sensitive guy i ever had. but its no so hard to take care of his feeling, but i have to admit it, banyak gila aku sakitkan hati dia. kadang kadang sengaja, kadang kadang tak, whatever it is, sumpah bahagia dengan kau lah baby mokk ! :D

second thing is, haih, aku kena BENGAP on fb, haih, sumpah marah gila. yess, i broke your heart, but its not the reason you boleh suka suka hati let your friends say something like that to me. and btw, you're not perfect either. we just same, cuma people only see kebaikan kau, tapi keburukan kau, orang tak nampak, semua tengok salah aku je. its really unfair ! haih.

and the third one is, i think i should pay more attention on study. haih, baru first semester, dah macam orang gila dah. tapi, keep try and trying, harap harap lah semuanya ok.

hhhmm, so now, stop pasal facebook. yesterday, fadzli, ijam, ekin and i pegi bukit belacan, mandi manda. haha, quite fun, tapi letih gila nak masuk ke dalam tu, kurus lah gemuk aku tu ! haha, so, lama jugak lah lepak kat sana, and lepas tu, adam datang, and we proceed pegi wangsa walk. apa lagi, karok ah ! haha, lama gila tak sumbang suara aku yang memang mengundang niii, haha. penat gila kitorang satu hari merayap. semua tipu mak bapak je nak keluar kan, mak abah aku ingat aku ada kelas, parents ijam dgn baby pun sama. haha, kira serong lah nii, takpe lah, bukan selalu :D

my baby bamm :)

so today, ada kelas macam biasa lah, tak tahu lah bala aku majal sape entah, helmet aku kena rembat, haih, sumpah tension lahhh ! so, this married couple pun buat job lah *my baby and me.
kitorang rembat balik helmet org, ya Allah, kering je laki bini ni kn. tapi takpelah, nanti insyaAllah aku pulang balik, ekeke :D

so tomorrow, my baby and i nak pegi jelatek, jogging katanya, haha. lepas tu malam, hah ! THE LAST AIRBENDER ! tunggu lah aku black list kn nama dekat wangsa walk tu, haha, may tomorrow is better than todayy :) big hugs guys, thank for reading :))

HYE AND YAAAH, AGAIN !

assalamualaikum, its been very long time im not updated this blog, haih, padahal aku tahu, nobody care ! haha, so now, my life is changed, changed at all. maybe im not the luckiest women ever, but yeaah, i am who i am now. once again, like you care, and i dont need you to care.

and now, im broke his heart, but im just really sorry, and once again i know, its not gonna fix with 'sorry' . i know you will find someone who much better than me. what you just need, is time. but still, thanks for everything, i mean EVERYTHING.

so many things happens around me, but it hard to explain and i think what happens, is yesterday, just close your eyes and ready for what happens tomorrow :)

and my tomorrow, i just hope is better. for muhammad nur fadzli mohd ali, maybe i could'nt be so perfect for you, but what ever it is, im trying, and trying. im so sorry for so many 'desa water park' , but im just be my self and i dont want it hurts you, but what i need, love me for who i am, and i hope im the best for you.

just give me much time for know you better, plant more understanding between us, you know, every one know, we just happy with each other, tapi dalam ketawa, kadang kadang perlu ada air mata, sebab air mata banyak mengajar dari ketawa :)

maybe i cant say it, but you know, you know me better, you know how much i want you, how much i care about you, how much i really love you. just learn from my words, my look, my tears, my laugh.

JUST PLEASE KEEP LEARN SAYANG, I KNOW YOU CAN :)