i miss youtomorrow will be a very important and scary day for me for this semester because i will be sitting the most scariest paper for this semester, introduction to economy. but guess whattt. i'm not making any preparation tonight. because i just lost my most important person in my life. and i don't have any strength to do any thing right now. i admit he is so important for me. but i know, how much he hate me so i won't begging to him any again. i know he won't leave me unless he really mean it. i don't blame you at all cause i know that all is my fault.
what i just have to do right now, is get use with this new life. try to forget about him, and try to make my life happy. i know how much he don't need and don't want to see my face again. i just hope he will be better without me.
i know how much you're not happy with me. i know all of it. cause i know who i am. everybody hates me. nobody needs me. i am a piece of junk. i am totally useless. i don't know what to do without you. i will figure it out later. i don't have any idea what to do now. i am totally clueless without you. i know you will be just fine without me.
huuuhhhh. we just plan to go to genting highland and after that port dickson. but seems all of it will be just dreams. he's not by my side anymore. i am just alone. sitting here. talking to myself. with nobody know what happen. i don't have any phone right now. i don't need it cause i had nobody to text with.
i will miss you, your smiles, your jokes, your laugh, your voice, your tears. i will miss it so bad. i know how all of this doesn't mean anything to you right now. and i know you won't read it. how stupid i am to leave you. i am totally stupid. and i know this thing won't fix forever. i will be here. alone. forever. cause i know, there's will be nobody after you. cause i don't want any man to take your place. i don't want cause i just need you. and i hope i won't love anybody beside you.
16 july 2010 to 6 march 2011.
